Little Diamond

And I wonder How would we look like in our 18 When we were both young And crashed to the rain When you were with somebody and I was someone else's What if we met earlier? Would we be in this level of understanding? Cause I'm grateful for ours now Cause we've met in a right time In the best beautifully insanity ~ Sincerely yours, Lynn

Oh God, it hurts! My eyes are blurred All of my tears keep running out My heart is punding over I'm in deep qualmishness Seeing all of the blood, all of the tears, all of the sweat in a road asking for the probity. And yet, they keep silent blindly. Oh God, it hurts! Lynn. Stay strong democracy. 

We never regret that we were one since then, We never regret that we took the vow. But what we regret is why we ran so fast in our relationship, Pushed so fast on everything, Running a pace of someone's expectations race. So now we're taking a deep breathe and slowing our pace, We're walking and holding hands, Enjoying every moment, Embracing each other's feelings, Validating each other's emotions... Lynn, May 20th, Never regret K.

Sometimes the demon inside me thingking, Why he never do this? Why he never do that? Why can't he becomes like someone else? So romatintic, so passionate... But lately in my down, I realized That a lot of my dreams Part by part Litlle by litlle Completed because he always supported me. Without a doubt  All of me The cuties and the demonic me My life slowly but sure is getting perfectly completed Because I'm with him And stay... -Lynn

 People only see the beauty in me recently Without knowing my flaws Without acknowledging my mess They didn't realize that it was such a horrible mess, Until your present making it as a beautiful mess ~ Lynn

 How could I'm not choosing you? When you are the only person know anything about me. The ups, the downs~ Laughing with me when I'm thrilled Staying with me in my sorrow Not moving back when I'm in the craziest part in my life~ Little do you know that When people loves me for who I am now It is because I've been growing up with you since we've together. Even when I distracted with someone's charm, I'm always choosing you. Always, and... How could I', not choosing you?

 I always and always loves the rain~ From the drizzle, the usual rain, or even the storm. No matter what, any form of rain is surely calming me... The sound, The petrichor... Just because yesterday I was hit by the rain storm, cause I was in the wrong place, in the stranger place that I though accepting me turned out just a new hell dressing like a home and I was totally torn apart by the drop of water colony, Doesn't mean I traumatized by the rain. Cause it's never because of the power of the rain Just because I was in the wrong place while raining Because I was not in the safe place... I forgot that the best place for facing the rain, Is in your side. And always be. No matter what the rain gives... Even the rainbow or the flood When I'm with you, I'm in the safest world. I can enjoy the rain, whatever the form is... with a cup of tea and a biscuit. End even the storm ever hit us We become the shield or even just an umbrella for each others... Lynn~ Thank you for not m...

People keep telling me to not trust anyone, Or trust specific group, Or person.... I let them tell that, Without arguing... Cause arguing is consuming so much me. The time spoke up itself, Discover who can be trust And It's never my mistake to trust anyone, That's all the responsibilities I can take. But prove me wrong, It's their job. I'm truly trust people easily But once betrayed, I forgive easily too But never trust them again, Even pretend their dead I trained to be a person who always stand, move the step on... Without forgetting. I'm just easily switching my value. People can make fun of my trust Until they got my ignorance~ Lynn

 I just want to admit my stupidity, How I almost fell to the deep hole Felt like I got a new company, Turns out it just some kind of evil mind Thought that I was all alone, That actually I was full armor But me, myself, who drop it all, Left myself vulnerable. But life goes on with it's knowledge left~ From that scratch I really knew Who is the most matter Who will wipe my bleed and who will stab the knife~ Lynn feeling betrayed, twice.

Scars may look ugly, Something that we're all trying to hide. But, guess what? People forget that... Our scars there cause we've healed. It is not hurt anymore. It's just there cause it doesn't give pain anymore... Scars there as a reminder for not falling to the same wound again. If it still hurts, just let be... Let it becomes a scar... Lynn

How could you be the one who said that I'm the only want who starve? When both of us was actually the hunger... Both of us eat in the same plate, But you blame me to be the only want who finish all of it, set the utensils to me. Turned out at the same time, you had all of the dish that you need. You betrayed me, In so many other ways... Lynn

Thought hating is the best way to move on... But it only gives a scar on me. Cause hating you makes me bleed even more. I choose to move on with stay loving you, Caring you like you did nothing. Like you never replaced my company. Because I don't want to make you have a reason to hate me. You can choose to find the issues on me. But once you can't find any, It's your time to swallow that I'm all worthed :) Good luck hating me without anything to hate. Cause I choose move on with stays loving. Lynn, :)

Who's going to be tougher? Let's fight and see

It's funny how we manage our ambitions alive After all of these fights, All these tears, All these ignorance, All these betrayals, Our ambitions keeps us together. We have walk these far, Till we can't run from each other too far. --Lynn

I want this to be over... I want to stop this feeling, Since for the first time I never wanted it, but it grows stronger... Unexpectedly... Even I don't know how to stop it. It hurts me, I want to walk out, but I can't... Forces by the situation and all of the business. But I want this to be over... Either the feeling, or any activity that needs the two of us in it... I want this to be over... Soon... Cause it eats me inside. And it hurts... Til I can't conceal it anymore. I'm uncontrollably bleeding... --Lynn

 Turns out it's okay without you Turns out you were just a good company in misery Cause turns out when I would drag you in the mortal beauty future You passed... And I hate it, cause turns out it was the best thing to do Turns out I was the one who so selfish  Turns out I was the cruel one --Lynn

Every morning, I need to sip a cup of coffee just to pass a day without a headache. When the day getting rough, I add some dose of it. Just to survive the day. And you were just like a coffee. You were always there when I need you. Then you suddenly stop anything Leave me numb without any dose of you anymore. So, how could I survive from now on? --Lynn

I still don't understand... Why people always assume that cheating is the biggest form of betrayal? Though for me, Ignorance is also another form of betrayal Never listen is a betrayal too... Never understanding is betraying someone's trust too... They said... Cheating is considered as betrayal since it hurts another side. But ignorance is definitely painful too... Never listen makes people feel lonely as how cheating did... Never understanding makes people feel worthless, like any other thing is more important than them. The difference is... Cheating makes someone is more important than the abandoned partner... While ignorance makes something  is more important than the same abandoned prtner... Both sucks Both are extremely painful, How can cheating is the only judgement of betrayal? -- Lynn

I was so ready for the war of our unlinked path. Cause the end has appeared long before we'd begun But goodbye turned out not the worst part. What hurt the most is how easily replaceble I was When my only shield was my own body, the frontliners... Fighting you with your best army has set up in your side --Lynn

 I said "I wish today will not rain" And you know I love the rain, Then you came bring the rain, but with the storm.... -- Lynn